It’s been a tough week. I’ve been given news that my grandmother is very ill and it’s only a matter of time before she can find peace. I have been so stressed that my shoulders were sore to the touch from retaining so much stress.
I’m trying to stay positive, granted my job doesn’t help relax things when there’s such lack of organization and communication that everyone is just mad at each other. I actually caught my manager lying to me about my work performance and threatening to fire me because he was having a bad day and needed someone to let it out on (Can you believe it? What level of professionalism is that?).
I feel like my depression is fighting hard to take over my life. I’m not going to let it. I’ve worked too hard to let it all fall to rubble at the hands of depression.
I’m giving my notice, talking to my teachers and am going to go see my grandma and take care of her.
I’m just trying to keep a level head and understand that it’s the natural course of life and a another life will soon fill the void that my grandmother left behind. It’s selfish of me to want her to stick around. I know it’s painful but at the end of everything I just hope my grandmother finds peace.